Ambitions

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Everyone has different ambitions they set out and try to achieve in this life. But we all have one common goal in all this and that is to succeed and be successful- or at least to feel successful, that's all that is truly important to us is to feel successful in ones heart.

Some simply want to exceed in being happy, in their careers, religion, or parenting. Others dream of acting, singing, dancing... making it big. And then you have people like my husband who aspires to create business after business- literally become an entrepreneur mogul- he craves that challenge, that risk, the thrill of turning his ideas into reality over and over again. 

My aspirations are none of these things. My heart and soul craves culture, craves the "unknown", craves adventure. This world is big and I want to be apart of it. I want to have my hands in it. I want to see it all, experience it all. And I am not talking about taking week long vacations around Europe- I don't want to be a tourist. I am talking about going to live with a tribe in Africa. I am talking about climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro. I want to teach English in China, I want to be a tour guide in South America, volunteer at orphanages in third world countries, learn the languages of the world, study wildlife in the Amazon. These are the things I want to do more then anything. These are the things I have to do to make my heart content. 

Luckily I am blessed with a husband that supports me in my dreams- like I do in his- a husband who motivates and inspires me. A husband that tells me to go out and do these things I constantly talk about doing.... and so that is what I am going to do. 

Wish Me Luck!
2-23-2008

If you notice the date there, I wrote this back in the 

beginning of 2008. Soon after writing this I booked

my solo trip to Peru for August of that same year.

Four years later I am starting to feel this same way again. 

Don't get me wrong. World travel has always been an 

ambition, that has never changed but what did change 

is my career. I fell into my dream job, a job I love. A job

that keeps me from turning into a gypsy. 

I am successful in my job and that feels good. I feel like

I am only at the beginning of where my career is going 

to take me. But at the same time I feel like I am choosing

between two dreams. There is the girl that wrote that lovely 

piece above- full of so much adventure. And then there is 

that girl that gets fulfillment out of the success of her career.  

And of the excitement of what is to come. 

In life you kind of have to work in order to have things and 

do things and I feel like if I have to work then I am lucky 

to be doing something I love. Even if it's demanding and keeps 

me from the world travel I dream of. 

But at the same time. I want to live recklessly and I can't have 

both. I recently updated my Facebook status with this, "there's

a wild child living inside of me and she is getting restless . . ."

There is so much truth in that statement. 

Lately, more often then not I dream of going all 

Brad Pitt from Legends of the Fall 

and just disappearing . . . 

in search of adventure.

but for now the fear, the fear of regret. 

The regret of leaving things behind

will keep me grounded for 

a little while longer.

I believe in life, things happen for a reason.

I believe my life will be great.

And I truly believe the best is yet to come.

Patience is the hard part.