Bring on the bad hair days

While going through some old files I came across this piece below that I had written a couple of years ago. I remember this day well and it's funny how easily we fall into such contentedness in our lives and start to take things for granted. Since writing this nothing major has changed in my life, I still have all those good things that I wrote about plus more- yet I don't feel what I felt on this day. I need find this happiness again- I need to be this girl again. I need to be grateful again. 

Are you ever so happy and content with life that you feel it’s just too good to be true? And your just waiting for some bad news or for something to go wrong because really how could you be so lucky? Well, that is where I am.  In fact I was thinking this exact same thing when I got pulled over for speeding, something I am notorious for, and the officer says to me “ I have never seen someone so happy to be getting a ticket.”  

And the thing is I was happy to get that speeding ticket because in that moment I was feeling almost scared. Scared because who is this happy? I don’t know anyone this happy? Life is not supposed to be this good, this perfect, and it made me start to worry that something bad was going to be happen because after all there needs to be balance and fairness in the world, right? So when I saw those flashing red and blue lights behind me I smiled because life is not perfect and my worries went away and now when there is a little blip in my day like a speeding ticket, a bad hair day, a flat tire, or whatever it may be I smile in those moments because in a way I almost feel like it’s a reminder to appreciate all that is good in my life and also in a funny way I almost feel like I deserve it since I am so lucky to be so happy in all the parts of my life that make the biggest impact.  My husband. My family. My health. My career.

I am so grateful.  Grateful to have experienced hardships, grateful to have had many unhappy unfulfilled jobs, Grateful to have had people share their stories and sorrows with me. If it had not been for those experiences I would not know this kind of happiness and for that I am truly grateful.